Update?

Wow, I haven't posted here in a while. So, it's almost at the end of the school year, yes?

I've been busy.

Very busy.

Here's most of what's been happening:

I finally found my niche in theater, being a stage manager. It's a tough, demanding, and time-consuming job, but I really enjoy it. So far I've stage managed three shows, was an assistant stage manager for one, and worked in a couple other productions as an actor and sound board operator, but dang, I've been busy working on show after show after show this year. My break was winter break. :P

First day back at the dorms.

Hello everyone! Today was my first full day back in the dorms at the university, and I have to say, it was a nice one! I got to meet and hang out with a lot of the foreign students who are here for the semester. They were from China and Korea, and it was so much fun to talk to them and get to know them. I got to show them around the main library on campus, and they were really happy to find out that they could check out movies from the library. We spent so much time there!

Truly, it was a whole lot of fun. It was also fun trying to say their own birth names rather than the English ones they were taking. (The students often take an English name to make things easier for others while they're here.) It was so cool! Their names are almost musical and it was so cool trying out these new sounds. They were very amused at my excitement. (Basically I was jumping up and down in my seat with a huge grin, "This is so cool!!!")

It was also kind of cool when they were asking me about the university and how American culture is. It was also cool that they were talking to me about their own culture. It all was SO COOL!!! Oh my goodness!

After we got back I basically spent the afternoon watching videos on the internet while drinking tea from the new tea set my parents gave me. Believe you me, I love this new tea set. It feels so fancy! I really want to have people over just so I can use it and share it with people. Of course, I'd love to have people over just so I can share tea with them and talk with them. That's the sort of thing I love to do.

Tonight I'm also going to go visit a friend that I haven't talked to really since we fought some time ago. I'm hoping that we can reconcile somewhat, but I don't think I can...really trust him again. We'll have to see how tonight goes, right? Hopefully it'll be a good experience and we can get along, even if we're not as close as we were before.

Oh, life: A short overview of the later half of the year

So, it's been forever since I've updated this blog, and there has been SO MUCH that has happened. Let's start taking an overview, starting with the summer, back when I was at my grandparents.

So, this summer in July I went to Arkansas for three weeks with my sister to help out my grandparents by cleaning for them, doing laundry, ironing, things like that. We spent a few days with our cousins as well, which was loads of fun. It amazed me just how girly my cousins are compared to my sister and me. They are BOY-CRAZY, love to shop, and are just...so girly! It really amazes me greatly.

Then my grandmother introduced my sister and me to two local boys, Levi and Michael. To make things short, they both decided that they liked me and decided to chase me. Whoo boy!

This year I was also thrown into the world of Stage Managing! Oh man that's a lot of work. I really do enjoy it, though. I enjoy it quite a bit. Perhaps I've found my calling in theater?

Because of the stage management I've started making friends in the theater department too. Not too many, but a few. That's a start at the very least. People know my name now, so perhaps I'll be able to get more work as a stage manager.

Also now am in Arkansas visiting my grandparents for the holidays, though I leave tomorrow to return home. I've been spending quite a bit of time with Levi. He says he loves me very very much, so much that he would marry me tomorrow if I would let him. I care quite a bit for Levi, but he lives here in Arkansas and I don't. I've got to at least finish school, and honestly I can't see myself as a housewife to a farmer...but who knows what the future will hold down the road, right?

Anyway, that's an extremely short overview. Blarg!

Maybe I should look into counseling

So, while I was in Arkansas (I'll fill my readers in on what happened in a later post), I met three young men, all of which I kind of personally connected to. You know how you meet people and there's just that sort of connection that's almost instantly there? That pretty much happened with all three of these guys. Anyway, one guy I friended on facebook and I've been talking to him over it, the other two I talked to quite a bit over the last week I was there through face-to-face contact and texting.

All three of these guys have told me things that they say they don't normally tell people. Personal things. I'm not wanting to sound like I'm bragging or anything, but this has happened a lot to me and my sister. People who need to talk about things going on in their lives tend to gravitate towards us, and they feel safe enough to tell us what's going on, even if they don't know us real well yet. It's happened so many times that I wonder if maybe I should look into counseling instead of theater. It makes one wonder, really.

What do people see in me that makes them feel so comfortable? Whatever it is, it's a good thing. Still, if anyone could enlighten me on it, I'd greatly appreciate it!

Hello out there

So things have been going alright here since the lost wallet incident. While visiting my grandparents, they have been spoiling me as much as we'll let them (which is slightly awkward at times) and Nicole and I have managed to get some cleaning done. Not as much I or our mother would have liked, but some. The fridge and microwave were no easy tasks! (I would point to one of them and say "Especially that one!" but both of them REALLY NEEDED CLEANING.) Grandpa's finally fixed the vacuum cleaner, so maybe we'll be able to get some vacuuming done? Of course, as soon as we announce our intention to clean anything Grandma goes in and tries to sneakily get it done before we can touch it. (Not well enough, unfortunately. That's ok, though, since we were sent to do some cleaning anyway.)

Nicole is behind you!

What makes people like summer, anyway?

You know, I never did like summer vacation, or even winter break. While I already didn't fit in with my peers in the regular K-12 education system, I felt even more separate from everyone else when breaks were approaching because everyone except me was getting excited. If anything I tended to dread the coming break. My life revolved around school, and every activity (except church) had something to do with it, so during the breaks, suddenly I had nothing to do and no one to see. Everyone had their summer plans for fun things, but I never had anything to do. My family may or may not spend a week or two visiting grandparents, but there were still weeks of summer to try to fill with...something. Anything.

High school summers were better because I was a member of the marching band and that took up most of the summer. It was lovely because the band was good, so I could be proud of being part of it and what we were doing. Band was one of the best things in high school, and I'm sure that it helped keep me alive through high school, including the summers.

The summers now that I'm in college are rather...bad...*sigh*

Old Poems and Old Memories

So, I found a notebook floating around here that had some poems that I wrote in high school, as well as one or two that I tried to write but couldn't get to finish how I wanted them to. Aside from an experiment with haiku, all of them were rather dark. Looking back on my memories of high school after reading my old poems, it's nice to see that my dark moments didn't start recently (so in one way they're almost normal). The other side, of course, is that I was a very unhappy person growing up, which is kind of sad, really. I know that I absolutely hated high school and the years before it because I was so bored, but it appears I had emotional problems then too. I suppose it's just food for thought.

Head over to the Krystaline Star blog if you want to read the poems in question. I left out the poem that wasn't finished, so if you want that one in there as well, you'll have to ask for it. You can probably get to my blog by going through my profile...so...good luck!