Background info: Both Lady E and I want to date Nil. We tell Nil that we want him to make a decision by the end of the weekend. Nil talks to Byron, mutual friend of ours, about this. Byron asks me why we want Nil to make a decision. I tell him because Lady E and I do not want to be strung out anymore. Byron replies that we worry too much and suffer from one-itis (there not being more than one option). Basically that tells me he doesn't get it. I tell him I really don't feel like explaining it to him.
He replies, "I understand. You just don't want to be patient and feel like you're entitled to something."
You know what? I am entitled to something. I am entitled to a boyfriend who is not two-timing or cheating on me. I am entitled to my emotions not being toyed with. I am entitled to be seen as valuable and precious and to be loved. I am entitled to no one making me feel less than who I am. And I am entitled to be able to talk about how I feel and what I think without being shot down and made to feel like I'm an idiot.
You know why, Byron?
I am worth it.
And if you don't get it, Brandon, screw you.
ReplyDeleteHackin yeah! Tell em, Krystal! (I used your blog name...hee hee hee)
ReplyDeleteNil did WHAT?!?!?!
ReplyDeleteIdiot, idiot, idiot. ARGH!
TBC via chats.
Refer to me as Crimson/Lost One/Beunolas please.
ReplyDeleteMore epic that way.
Oh, and just to throw this out here for anyone who wishes to challenge my views on relationships.
ReplyDeleteI'm taking all comers. Come and learn a little something. Maybe we'll have a nice knock down drag out fight about it, and can bond through it.
You do not deserve epic.
ReplyDeleteDone more in my life than you have. Actually can argue my point. I deserve epic.
ReplyDeleteIn my defense:
ReplyDeleteBy "talks to Byron," I would like to clarify that I said two sentences, and used 22 words. Basically I said I was spazzing over it.
...and Rachel, you did tell me to talk to "talk to one of your guy friends about it."
Sorry it wound up like this.
In other news:
Sorry, Byron, but she's quite right. Certainly as far as I am concerned.
Epic... fail?
Brandon.
ReplyDeletePlease get my name right~
And if you'd rather have a discussion and actually try to make a point to me, please do so. I'll gladly argue it.
Okay, sure. What actually happens in interpersonal interactions in this world is not a matter of static truths and generalizations. What happens has to do with the specific and unique people involved. While anything is possible, and certain things are probably, in the end, it is a matter of how the people involved chose to act. And interpersonal interaction, by definition, exists between those people.
ReplyDeleteIn this case, Krystal feels entitled to something. I feel that she is entitled to something. Therefore in our interpersonal interaction--the shared reality between us--she most definitely is entitled.
In the end, it's what you make up, and who chooses to share your vision of reality.
Nil, I don't fault you. Really, I don't. You were spazzing and I completely understand because I'd be doing the same thing if I were in your shoes. This rant was about Beunolas. I was ticked at him, not you.
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ReplyDeleteAlso, another note. Yes, I did advise you to talk to one of your guy friends about this. I want to make absolutely clear nothing in this rant was aimed at you, Nil. Nothing. This rant was in response to what Beunolas said to me.
ReplyDeleteI would like to take this time to say that even though I am a million miles away and completely detached from whatever it is happening, I must say that, not judging anyone, but sometimes we must wait and let things come together on their own, otherwise once this person directly involved tells someone not involved, that person BECOMES involved and then more people become involved and it becomes more of a mess than it ever should have been. Krystal feels that she is entitled to something, and one should never make someone else feel that they don't deserve what they are entitled to. And, even though I don't know you at all...Byron, is it? Or Brandon? Well, whoever you are, I'm sure you're a wonderful person, but it seems to me as though you provide a very lacking bit of argument. From what I read it seems as though you are very stubborn headed and will prove yourself right even if wrong at all costs. That's really no way to be, but coming from someone who has no clue who any of these people but one are, I can't really justify that comment with anything but my own intuition, so I may be completely wrong. This is my take on things, take it or leave it. I'm simply an outsider looking in. Have a wonderful day to you all!
ReplyDelete~Preston
First of all, I never said Krystal was NOT entitled to those things. She failed to specify exactly in what context I said she was not entitled to something.
ReplyDeleteKrystal does not have the right to force someone to make a decision they're not ready to make. No one has that right, and no one should have that right. It took me 2 hard years of my life to learn that lesson, and I've learned it well. She had no right to make the judgements she did, and any feeling of entitlement, feeling like she "deserves" an answer from Nil, is false. Love is patient. Lust is eager. In life, not just in sex. If you actually WANT something from the relationship, you will wait for both parties to be ready and not SURROUND your life with this situation. At this point, no, its not the pot calling the kettle black. I've learned far more than I ever needed to know, but I surround myself with far more than my love life. Everyone can say they aren't me all they want, but do more in your life than just think about what you don't have.
What I say is a law, not subsequent to individual situations. You want to know my history with this? Imagine living through 1,800 relationships. Picking through, knowing every little detail and finding a way to work through it, and you'll have a broad idea of my knowledge expanse. What I've said is a law, no matter what the parties. If you're unwillng to wait, to let the other person come to their own answer and solution, there is nothing for you there. You will push, and the relationship will die. Ask the hundreds of young guys I've talked to, who have told me this same story. Relationships aren't forced, they are shared. And this, this situation, as it was described to me, is a forced thing. No matter which way it ends, it is tainted. How it came about, will never be changed. You might be able to work it, but the foundation is shattered. With love, almost anything is possible.
But reconciliation, between two extremely opinionated people who love each other. That's an impossible situation. So if I may make the suggestion I have made all along to everyone.
Calm the fuck down. Sit back, relax, and let the world work. If it is to be, it will happen. If it isn't, tough titties. Its your choice to wait. If its not worth waiting, find someone else. If it is worth waiting, it was your choice to wait. No one elses. You're not entitled to force someone to make a choice they're not ready to make, no matter how long you've waited. I lost a fiancee because of that.
Don't make my mistake.
sorry, subject.
ReplyDeleteI had something else typed out, but I will merely leave it at this.
ReplyDeleteIf you feel that this situation warrants no longer being my friend, then I will comply. I just want you to understand what I know, and that I am looking out for your best interest, when it comes right down to it. And when it comes right down to it, I probably have studied more human interaction than any other person you know. If anyone DOES have the right to judge a situation like this, sort of someone with formal training. it is probably me. And my judgement was asked for.
So if I'm to be punished, for merely giving you my real opinion, and trying to show you why its justified, when it was requested, then it just seems like a very silly situation.